3 months clean and now this shit
i’m so upset
i was clean three months. Three months without throwing up… I thought I was cured I thought that it was over and then tonight came and I fucked up bad.
I was in the shower after a bowl of pasta and I felt so heavy and my finger just naturally found it’s way down my throat.
The worst part… it felt so good.
After I was done I felt so light and good and I don’t know what to do.
I’m scared I’m gonna fall back, back down into the deep hole and I won’t be able to get out this time.
I need to get through this. For my voice, for myself, and for all the people that have stood besides me and watched my progress. They’ve been there for me and I don’t want to disappoint them.
BE STRONG ♥
week 6 day 4
breakfast: 1 & 1/2 bottle of water
calories:0
lunch: salad (tomatoes, lettuce, and cucumbers)
calories: 100
dinner: apple and orange
calories: 80
snack: apple
calories: 40
workout: elliptical (30 minutes), arm lifts (40), leg lifts (10 each), plank (1.15min) sit ups (50)
calories burned: 400
calories consumed:-180
week 6 day 2 cont.
breakfast: orange
calories: 40
lunch: chicken salad and green tea
calories: 250
dinner: apple and 2 oranges
calories: 160
workout: run 33 minutes, sit ups: 100, leg lifts 40, weights 10 reps, arms 20 reps
calories burned: 400
calories consumed: 50
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